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Friday, July 29th, 2005
8:36 am	ARGH so i am feeling very ignored by my parents lately...maybe its because i haven't done anything exceptionally stupid lately. whatever. so my mom and brother are leaving with my aunt and cousin for the summer house today for a whole week. like what am i supposed to do? have great conversations and memories with my dad? yeah right, we barely talk as it is, how awkward. how am i supposed to get along with him so well when hes never home? UGH. and i was thinking this morning when i was curling my hair, which will probably go flat soon as i step out the door.....who am i supposed to call on my breaks and on my way home and whenever i'm bored? i always call my mom but now she'll be all way in the middle of fucking nowhere michigan. i got so upset i ruined my mascara so now i have to reapply before i go to work and i am just pissed/depressed/pmsing.....I WANT TO FUCKING SHOP RIGHT NOW OR SOMETHING. yeah........i hate when people try to read me. AND why do i have a blemish today? so not happy about that. fucking bitches. blah. whatever. i miss leah, nate, drew, raunch, fred net, grover and company.......tear. fucking normandale. it better be worth it, i have to go back wednesday, pissed about that too.... ARGH! Current Mood: aggravated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
2:59 am	o....m.....g omg, so there is sooo much to do this week....ugh. work work work...blah. FRAT PARTY JUNE 12th at sigma chi. so excited. i have to buy a new outfit, thank god i have angie to help me. i think the look i want to go for that night would best qualify as "stuck up slutty rich bitch". so by august 12th i'd like to lose 10 pounds even though i am finally a size 2 now, thank god. anyway, the weight, start tanning, get my hair touched up the day before probably, new outfit, and my nails done. OH! and now i have to start looking for a dress for the university of st thomas homecoming. i was thinking of betsey johnson but that might be a bit too wild...........but who i am to say too wild. lol. thursday my mom and brother leave for the summer house. no mom for 2 weeks...weird. then my dad leaves probably next friday for a week at the summer house with them....empty house for a week.....yeah, there will def. be some trouble going on, BUT there is this awesome new island breeze with half the calories. thank god for kim catrell to inform us. well, thats all for now. ttyl! MUAH! Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
Friday, July 22nd, 2005
4:09 am	life or something like it so summer has been going by way too fast, its already half way over. this is the time where i stop to take time and reflect over those great summer memories of june and july..... oh wait, there really aren't that many since most nights we've all been intoxicated....big shock there. but then comes the thought as to why we all drink so excessively...my group of friends and i...is it because we A) can't have fun being sober, heaven forbid B) all have drinking problems before we have even reached our early twenties...roadmapping a long journey ahead of us C) just want to forget how meaningless our lives are at this point from our day to day jobs where we stand there pretending to fold polos, pushing mens new kilburn denim jeans, and talk about how coach purses are actually really important... i think its probably a mix of all three, but at this point i really don't care so i'm wondering if the 80 degree weather we have in the twin cities area is what provokes all the drug dealers to come out...i mean yeah its awesome you have a new suv every year and your gold chains are just totally "off the hook" but what makes guys think a girl like me would sleep with a guy like them for a line of cocaine. HELLO, do i look like some ghettolicious girl with fake press on coke nails, streaky highlights, and a super padded push up bra from K-MART? don't try to use me to get to my friends to sell your nasty drugs. how tacky can people be, gross. personally.... i think drugs are lame. i don't care how many girls are willing to sleep with you and what you give them besides a nasty vd. yuck. guys suck only one more month until i start my thrilling academic adventure at the prestigious normandale community college. yes, thats right, normandale. where i will be enrolled for hopefully only one semester. then after that its off to the university of minnesota to study in the school of human ecology. "i just hope, i can like..do good and stuff...because, like, school is just super hard and stuff, and i just like to look in the mirror and buy like lip glosses that cost a lot of money that i get from my dad...and stuff". Actually it shouldn't be that hard, i'm hoping to pull at least a 3.5 . this time though i'll have to go to class and maybe open up a book every now and then, it should be worth it though because then!!...... i should be at the u of m by spring. join the sorority my heart desires where i can further my image of being the "stuck-up bitchy slutty ditz" that acts like shes is better than anyone she comes into human contact with. then i can prance around university in my madison jeans and louie vuitton hand bag to go visit my asshole frat boyfriend i will find who will probably be just using me for sex but i wont care because he will have a lot of money and thats what i like! because i'm just too imcompetent....... and i'm a gold digging whore! the world will make sense once again... Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 5th, 2005
4:36 pm	summer times i love my friends, i love my jobs, i love summer. so a great start to the summer would have to be a great group of girls...lindsey, nila, erica, angie, amy, polk...crazy times. nilas sisters house, catch phrase at nicks, shopping.....soon to go CAMPING, i know, me camp, try something new, why not? jobs? me work? YES! abercrombie and now.................victorias secret with RACHEL! so like i'm super excited about the discount and even more about working with rachel! i have not hung out with that girl in like forever and her wedding is coming soon. eep. its official...going back to blonde next week....brunette is not my thing...soooooo excited to go back to blonde boys? theres a few....leave it at that Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
3:07 am	i want to go dancing so i have officially been in my house for a week...just haven't felt like going out. no, i'm not depressed, i just haven't felt like drinking that much. blah. anyway...i decided i need another job because i think i want to start doing things on my own...weird, i know. so i went and applied at don pablos....i realized i just can't be the girl that takes money from her daddy all the time....even though i wish it would be that way forever. hopefully i will be out of the house by january. so i went and hung out with the girls on friday...i felt so awkward and i don't know why. i really don't know what it is...what changed, maybe i did. ewww. i just sat there and felt totally weird. i really wish i knew what it was. so i went home and just sat there thinking...i hate thinking..eww. saturday i worked and then came home and watched elf with my parents, totally fell asleep on the sofa and didn't wake up until about 1...yay. party kristen. then later on i watched hanging up with my mom. yep, we're hot. went for a 2 hour walk today.. i decided i want to be a size 2 by the end of june. how hard can it be? i went on one of those pro ana sites to get tips and support and all that jazz...only my dad caught me...how do i explain that? yeah, hey dad, this is just a diet website...that says PRO ANOREXIA...oh god, like i want to deal with those confrontations again....BAAAAAAAAAAH. i guess no one else really understands it but mikey. he doesn't care..as we say "anorexia is the new bulimia", probably not funny to most, except us. probably because we've been this way forever...but we're dancers..its just something you end up doing, whatev. realized i miss deacon....a lot...even though he was super tall, and skinny, and had a mop of black curly hair....and skate boarded....and painted awesome pictures....and was just probably the nicest guy ever...and called me when he went on that trip to cali all the time....and still hung out with me when he dated that bitchy girl.....and even talked to me when i'm this preppy bitch and he was this laid back zumiez guy....yep, i sure know how to fuck up good things...awesome and on a lighter note..i think my dog is sick. she keeps shaking for no reason..it scares me. she is almost 10. umm..can you say UGH? called mr.nate kitzman tonight! hes in wilmer.... blah, i wanted to go out and get coffee in minneapolis....where have all my gay men gone?!! so instead i went to the grocery store and got a chai tea and broke in my new heels....hopefully the week will get better. at least my hair looks really good. right? i've been trying to spend time by myself like kareem told me. i don't really like it though, i need people, and attention....why am i so high maintenance? i have no idea. whatever. I WANT TO GO DANCING! SO BAD!!!! not this thursday..because fam from texas is coming up tuesday, but next thursday watch out! its going to be BIG! and i'll probably be dressed like a skanky whore! so sue me, oh wait, you can't... Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
5:26 am	gross...its like 5 am its 5 am, i woke up from the worst dreams ever last night!, i'm sitting here in yoga pants and my 2nd north hunnies tee AND i smell like dihydroxyacetone......but whatev, DHA is my new best friend. yay! so i've been thinking a lot about school. the u of m has one of my majors i need BUT i talked it over with my uncle who is the vice president of lockheed aeronautics in texas and HE said even though the u of m is a top school my degree from the state of wisconsin will hold more prestige. SO I DO believe for the time being i will remain at river falls. i mean its not that bad.......lol, ok, its a fixer upper. eww...fixer upper sounds so tacky. anyway.....who knows where i'll be, my parents might move to vegas in 3 years...well they are, no might, and i will probably go with them...possibly, and if so, my aunt was saying i should try out to be a showgirl for one of the hotels...which would be fun for a bit. so this summer is going to be full of dance lessons, golf lessons *yuck*, and maybe running for miss cottage grove...i still have a week to decide on that one. well those are just some random thoughts. now to my life! monday was very interesting...you learn so much about some people...people like to hide behind lies. weird. whatever makes you happy. got a very random call from a guy i graduated with...i need to call him back, maybe saturday..... tuesday was b-o-r-i-n-g. studied, had some tests..ewww... BUT MIKEY CALLED ME WHEN I WOKE UP! oh happy day. i looooove getting calls from mikey, oh god how i miss him. I LOVE HIM MORE THAN BUYING NEW SHOES!thats a lot. i can't wait until he comes home in october. why did he have to go be a dancer on a cruise ship anyway? more good news...my tan butter came in the mail! hoorah! so the night consisted of me running around the house in my bikini and having my mom help me smear this brown goo all over. i am never going in a tanning bed again. DHA for life! fell asleep at 8 on my brothers floor. weird, i know. woke up in my bed at 4, took a shower and came to school. now i am sooo bored, and thinking of the whacked out dreams i had last night. but whatev, its wednesday, we all know what that means! kristen and bryce day. Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 8th, 2005
10:19 pm	SCHOOL IS ALMOST OVER BITCHES well well well...its been forever, and i know you are all so interested in my life..yeah right...anyway thursday i stayed in, i'm a loser, but i don't care. painted my toe nails with my mom and watched the O.C. since it was a 2 hour one! should have done homework but didn't really happen that way...i am going places here. friday SUCKED SO MUCH. OH MY GOD, i wanted to die. skipped my classes, way smart to do on the last day but i e-mailed my teachers and worked it out. had to go to work so i went to the mall an hour early to walk around, ran into m.o. probably the worst guy in the world, he seriously should die. i should kill him. i'm really good at acting tough, i need to learn how to be tough now because i would love to be able to kick his ass. so i saw him in the mall and first got really mad, then really scared so i hid in the girls bathroom until it was time to work....so i get off work at 8 and don't really know what i'm doing yet so i change in my car, wait for my girls to call me but oh wait, thats right they don't do that anymore, please ditch me..... then i get a call from j, he wants to talk, sweet, so i drive all the way home to talk to him but oh wait, hes not answering his phone all of a sudden SOOOOOO i sit in the rainbow parking lot and wait for him only to have a cop drive up to me and tell me how i'm loitering for waiting in the rainbow parking lot...yeah okay, whatever, so i go into rainbow to buy some gum and chocolate since i'm getting super depressed and have my period...and I FALL ON MY ASS IN THE HEALTH FOOD ISLE! yeah, my 3 inch wedge platforms can kiss my ass...i don't care how cute they are, i fell on my ass. so now i'm in tears, with my shoes, swollen ankle, and extra 100000 calories i really don't need..go back to my car, and try calling him again...whoops, he was too busying having sex with some fat blonde whore from woodbury, surprise surprise, whats new...so at this point, i've humilated myself, been ditched, stabbed in the back, cheated on? maybe? not really, guess he doesn't count as a person AND i don't know about these shoes....so i go home where my brother calls me FAT and i cry myself to sleep...so much for my awesome friday... saturday...bought a new top, pathetic how buying clothes makes my problems go away..is that a form of sickness or just debt, i have no idea. ran into DI at the mall..walked around with him for a bit, i love that crazy arab boy, lol. we both decided we want a hot sugar daddy. went into metro park..cool store, nice hand bags...bah. worked.... TALK ABOUT SLUTTY WHORE BITCHES TALKING SHIT....got off work. tried calling bryce, that whore, didn't answer his phone, he was sleeping......UGH. drove home and talked to my mom abuot slutty whore bitches talking shit and then i went to kitzman's party...WHOA, talk about naked gay men everywhere. crazy crazy crazy. partied a little too much though because some boys gave me a little too much vodka...creepy. thank god chad and brandon came and brought me home because i don't really know what was going on later except some bad shit going down. bah...smart choices made yet once again. basically tweaked out on the way home because i heard the r word. this last weekend of college parties totally kicked me in the ass. sunday, mothers day, the day we celebrate our mothers....yeah okay. gave my mom the present i bought her (lipstick and chocolate) yeah, that doesn't make my mom and i look like superficial bitches or anything (we're not). lol. went with mon pere to school to get all my stuff from my room. ONLY ONE MORE WEEK!!! drove home...awkward? not really, except the fact that my dad keeps trying to set me up with these 23 year olds...yeah, no thanks, i'll find my own guys...ewww, dating someone my dad picked out? no, PLEASE TRY TO CONTROL MY LIFE A LITTLE MORE! CHRIST! i mean they only tell me what to wear, how to do my makeup, my hair, my classes, my car, my money.......do i even know what thinking is? who knows. started watching the O.C, fell asleep, woke up, talked to bryce on the phone since i haven't seen him in a million days (okay, like 8 days, but thats a really long time) fell asleep again...now i need to study for finals but i really don't want to. Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
3:34 pm	i think i'm crabby....or just really tired well today was...hell. woke up, felt sick, went back to bed (it was way toooo cold to walk to astro anyway) and then woke back up and did homework. DID OUR GROUP SPEECH TODAY IN BUSINESS! it went over very well, except those jack- asses that said no to our proposal...oh just wait until its our turn to judge them wednesday..pay back is a bitch, lol. wow...that sounds really bitchy, pms sucks, lol. anyway........couldn't figure out what to wear this morning, ended up thinking heels were a good idea...yeah, the walk across campus really sucked today.LOST MY FAVORITE JADE PENDANT NECKLACE. ARGH. now i get to go home and go to the doctor because i think i'm sick and there is no way i want to be sick during finals week....BAH. i just want to go home, put on my yoga dance capris, get a big glass of diet coke with ice, my ballet slippers, and watch soap net all night.....ahhh the life. Current Mood: cranky (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
11:29 pm	life keeps being crazy wow, a lot to update here....lets see thursday: got hottified and went over to bryce's. the plan was going to spin but after we got drunk neither of us cared or wanted to stand outside so we picked up blaze and went back to the frat house and benders. crazy night. bryce passed out. lush. but who am i to talk? lol. after some time i didn't even know what i was doing. had a "battle of the riches" with blaze in the kitchen. i think he won but i was to drunk to know. good times. friday: well, friday was a great day, i got to drag my ass into work at 8 am feeling like hell. yay for acting perky with a hang over...BUT I GOT TO GO TO TACO BELL! YAY! lol, i love taco bell. after work i had to go to RF for a group meeting thing where i did....NOTHING! lol. went back home and hung out with my baby brother mr. aussa mackey....lol. my drunk russian friend called me, oh god, hes hilarious, funny story about that call... saturday: this is where it gets crazy...lets see, went to work, went on break to realize j called me.....so weird! so who do i call to talk about this? MY MOM! lol. we decided i'll be nice and civil, but thats about it! got off work at 10, got dressed in my car, went over to kappa sigma to see jamie and party...couldn't find the house so i was just walking up university by myself...some random guy grabbed my face and told me how i was gorgeous and had to go home with him...CREEPY!ran into john, matt, and jack...found the frat, partied upstairs with laura, jamie, and krista for a bit, went downstairs, went back to melrose with the boys...walked with matt to go get my car...ended up back at melrose, somehow found myself playing mario upstairs in someones apartment...then luke and sean picked me up, went to the high rise apartments (omg, it does look like batman, lol) and ended up staying there....like i said, crazy night...oh jeez sunday: well, extremely hung over, gross.....went and bought shoes with my mom...YAY FOR CORK WEDGE PLATFORMS! who doesn't love shoes that make you 3 inches taller? weighed myself...only 5 more pounds to go!!! took a nap on my couch, had a chat with my brother since hes super depressed thinking he has a lisp...took a shower, and went to river falls for the night to work with my business group for our presentation tomorrow...had to walk all the way across campus to prucha hall to do it too....OH MY LORD was it freezing outside...thank god drew had a car nearby, no way in hell was i walking in my flip flops, capri yoga pants, and dance team sweatshirt...i was so going for style today, can't you tell? lol. went grocery shopping with drew. came back, choked on an orange because i thought it would funny to try to fit the whole thing in my mouth to creep nate out. yeah, i know...freak. and now i'm just here for the night! lol, good times. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
10:50 am	normal life is my life normal? lots of people say its not, but i think it is. whats normal anymore anyway? so yeah, i'm extremely spoiled, hang out with an army of gay men, models, party like a rockstar, and always wear heels, but who doesn't? monday i stayed at school to spend some quality time with ms. maseby! lol, leah, nate and i made pizza in the basement and to our surprise we found buckets of margarita mix in the freezer...so of course we stole it! we watched mean girls and just hung out, a very chill night. it was nice for a change. then i listened to my voice messages to find out one of my friends was in jail for the past 2 days! lol, so much for chill huh? oh my. but everything is good now. tuesday i dyed my hair! eeep, its so dark, its almost black....but I LOVE IT! went to walgreens to buy some makeup. OKAY, yes its walgreens but fuck off, i love walgreens...and it will be a cold day in hell when you get me to drive by myself when its dark and raining to ridgedale's sephora or the MAC counter at nordstroms for some last minute blush and eyeshadow...aww HELL NO. so back to me buying makeup at walgreens....after that i drove home to find a boy that looked exactly like V on the side of the street waving at me...i think it was V, my god V was so hot, i was so excited my junior year of highschool when i came to my class to find him there sitting in my chair to surprise me, and to find out he told his parents about me and blah blah blah...but no, then he had to go all crazy and get back with that fat blonde girl...whatever, you can't trust boys that are in ALC and hurt themselves because they are so fucked up...it was a fun thought for the time being though.....hes probably doing drugs in the woods by the park right now anyway...cool..... wednesday! hmm.....went to morning classes and then drove to minneapolis to the hennepin court to pay all my fucking parking tickets...i swear to god i could be a millionaire if i didn't get so many fucking parking tickets all the time. i wonder what all the workers in their black attire thought when this little brunette came bouncing in wearing destroyed denim, some boys big ralph lauren button down and a bright mint green ralph lauren coat with matching flip flops asking "hi, like where do i pay for these parking tickets i have?!?!" lol. anyway, i made it there and home...only getting lost a couple times...how do you even tell the difference between st paul and minneapolis? i mean i've been living here for about 11 years now and i STILL CAN'T TELL! bah...went to the drum shop with my dad for his band practice and had bryce pick me up..we ended up going to benders. MY GOD WAS MARSHALL DRUNK! lol, silly drunk boys...was everyone in the world drinking last night? liam left me a drunk message too...funny. thursday MORNING: okay, so i hate hearing every morning "KRISTEN, it's 7:30, time to WAKE UP" from my dad, what a little bitch! i get so mad because HELLO, i don't have class until 10! my mom was laughing at me this morning because soon as my dad said that i spazzed, i shouted "SHUT THE HELL UP, leave me ALONE"...i was sooo crabby for some reason...bah. got ready for the day, came to school and watched maury...todays topic "i'm cheating on you with our babysitter"....okay, ladies, i don't care if you're fat and ugly, you don't stay with your man if he cheats on you once, period. i don't get how all those ladies take their men back after they cheated on them for the fourth time. i was taught if he does something that doesn't make you happy you kick his ass out the door. you can always find a new man. just a thought. WELL! time for class, a bottle run, and then start up my thursday!!! i'm so excited, i'm going to look hot tonight. Current Mood: bouncy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 25th, 2005
12:38 pm	life lessons so many things talked about and learned today with leah! omg, i love it! * sex is meaningless * gay men are more drama than girls * girls are mean * we know about "the game" and how to play * i'm over all boys (damnit, i need to find a new one, i need a crush..BAH!) * "we're just going to assume i am"....yeah don't ask * we're wild, just deal with it damnit! * we dress provacative sometimes, who the fuck cares? * we're poor too...college sucks! so excited for kristen and leah night! Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
8:33 am	holy hannah! woke up super tired but whatever....weird dreams last night...way weird. ANYWAY, weighed myself this morning..122...not too shabby considering 2 1/2 weeks ago i was 135..YAY! I HAVE CHEEK BONES AGAIN! only 7 more pounds to go! i'm super happy with myself right now. i was so excited i started dancing in my room! lol, wonder what my neighbors think when they look into my window at 7 am and see me dancing in my silk pink boxers and cami.....lol. i'm staying at school today to do a commercial and then have a kristen and leah night so my mom helped me make a bag lunch and dinner. lol. i felt like i was in grade school again! i have so much to do today its disgusting. class, homework, the commercial, pay my parking ticket, my parents will probably find out about it today since its 4 days late...i should expect a lovely call from them....AHHH. oh well. they'll get over it, eventually (hopefully). had a nice drive to school this morning..totally realized what the fuck my deal is too. i knew there was something wrong when this hot guy came up to me at delta chi and i pushed him away, and i finally realized what my deal is. i hold on to things to much and need to let this one thing go. my lord. i didn't realize how many secrets i have from people. and everyone thought i was so damn readable...lol, which is probably true, but there are just some things some would never think. omg, that totally made me sound like a lesbian too, don't worry, thats not my secret. but now things make sense, why i'm so self destructive sometimes, why i don't let guys get close, why i spaz out..AHH, things need to change like NOW. some things can age our souls so quickly and its not fair. but we put on a happy face and make up this lie that we tell EVERYONE, old friends, people we just meet, because if they believe it then you yourself can believe it and think that it never happened. i'm slowly getting over it though and i'm finally becoming happy. Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:04 am	crazy u of m yeah......crazy stories........crazy weekend.......crazy u of m friday: so friday i had work....my managers were sooo nice about my burn...omg, a lot of people think abercrombie employees are just a bunch of stuck up shallow bitches (which is the case most of the time) but not my people...i LOVE THEM! they all make me soo happy. worked until 10...bah, oh well, it was fun. after work i went over to bryce's house because i didn't see that bitch for like a week! went to benders, fun time. saw jack, hadn't seen that bitch in FOREVER. ended up going home with john, some guy i don't know, smart, but he was an okay guy. crazy i'm not dead in a ditch yet...lol saturday: work again and i looked human finally! YES YES YES!!! got my nails did, bought probably the hottest party top ever...soo pretty, i love tangerine pink...after work i went to ambers apartment and pre partied with the usualy thursday party circle (kitzman, brad, amber, and kerri) omg, love those people, so much fun! went to delta chi, I LOVE THE U OF M, i can't wait to transfer there. anyway, the frat party was pretty fun, went in the bathroom with the girls and this other girl followed us. she was apparently 27 years old and this was her first frat party ever...wow, i think she was on crack, i borrowed her eyeshadow though that she STOLE FROM TARGET. hunny, if you're 27, going to frat parties, and stealing target make up...something is wrong with your life. lol. ended up partying with some drug dealers...crazy. went back to the apartment and passed out in amber and kerris room, woke up at like 4 because people were having sex or something in there...thank god kerri busted in the room without her pants so i could make an escape and go in the living room...lol. then i woke up at 7 and snuck out early..i hate morning afters...blah. sunday: yay sunday...what a relaxing day. went shopping for my beauty supply at my favorite place for beauty supplies...WALGREENS....i think drugstores are just so much better than places like target or wal-mart...i all of a sudden hate places like that. drugstores are the way to go. wal-greens and the kiehls counter at nordstroms...all a girl needs.. lol. got my usual shampoo (johnsons baby shampoo, yeah i know, its for babies! but my skin is so sensitive all the time its the only shampoo i can use since...FOREVER!), lotion, hair dye and floss...hardcore huh? lol. came home, hung out with the mom since my dad and brother go golfing every sunday, watched that thing you do.. LOVE THAT MOVIE, then a harlequin romance movie (diamond girl) making me think my love life is pathetic! why can't i be a paralegal that falls in love with the owner of napa valley wine and be taken in the vineyard?!!! god damn. weighed myself (lost 11 pounds in 2 weeks) only 10 more pounds to go! fell asleep for like ever, i think today i lived the life of a cat...took a steam bath...i feel amazing! so in general, not a bad weekend, next weekend should be even better! Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
1:47 pm	went to my appt this morning....wasn't bad, i should be fine by thursday and i'm getting dermabrasion in june or july just to even everything out and get rid of fine lines by tanning...tanning is bad, i'm done. i'm already darker then most anyway....my mom says we're exotic (yeah, not really)...my dad was joking around and said she looks somalian so she said hes not having sex for 2 months...ewww, that is way to much information. parents are gross. so i'm not super sad about tanning, but that also means no beach (sad), no texas (WAY SAD), and i have to wear a hat when i go out in the sun.....i asked my parents to go to the galleria so we could get a hat and they said i have to turn everything into a shopping trip...yeah..DUH. but for now i have my good ol' taylormade golf hate...pimp...and big sunglasses, i'm supposed to wear those too....but i don't mind, its so celebrity-ish don't you think? lol work from 5-10 tonight.....woot woot, its pay day! hopefully this paycheck will last for more then one day... then i'm going ..........HOME! yes! i am not going out this weekend so if anyone wants to come to my house and hang out with my you have my number! recap of last night: football house sucked! thats why i don't go there....i was getting so frustrated from stupid comments so i just said fuck it and went home....made it home in 15 minutes too...i guess that happens when you're going about 85-90 the whole way home...thank god there weren't any deer out since it was past 11... bah, what a thursday..i am so going back to the clubs next thursday...my mom is even going to buy something new to wear because she just "knew" i was coming home. soon as i got there she said "you just walked out of the party and came here didn't you" and i was like fuuuck, she knows everything. having a mother thats semi-psychic SUCKS! you can't get away with anything. now i'm just wasting time before my last class and drive to the mall wondering...how do you start talking to old friends you lose touch with, and why do you lose touch in the first place? it bothers me! why can't things just be good all the time?! oh well, everything happens for a reason. SATURDAY I'M GETTING MY NAILS DID AGAIN! how did i ever live without my french tip acrylics? what a sad sad world it was. YAY FOR NGOC NYUEN! he does my nails so pretty. i'm excited! Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
6:37 pm	it's thursday, and i'm staying here....BOO yes, thats right, its thursday and i'm at school..... went home today after class, watched the crow...OMG, THAT MOVIE IS SO HOT, played with my dog, went to the library (dieitng for dummies, a must read)OOOOOH. so productive. my mom gave me an hour long speech today on why i need to marry a plastic surgeon....yeah okay, whatever. i just sat there and listened while i waited for my dad to put gas in my car so i could come back to school. awesome. THEN my mom goes on to tell me that i'll lose weight once i get a boyfriend because i'll be in love....and i guess i'll be having a lot of sex which makes you lose weight since its "exercise"...yeah, so i don't have the conventional mother, but then again i am not the conventional daughter. DROVE BY MY TENNIS BOYS! YAY TENNIS! jesus, why am i so attracted to the preppy asshole pricks? i just can't help it! damn. oh well, at least i rejected J. i mean seriously, what a little bitch. so what if you're extremely hot, have lots of money, and i slept over at your place once. so over it! he was a bad kisser anyway. AND WHO takes you to a fucking parking lot, stops the car, and just sits there...i mean wtf? was he just waiting for me to unzip his pants or what. NEXT! a pretty girl is never a lonely girl. still waiting for my shoes....and everyone seems crabby lately. wtf, is it national pms week for the world? maybe i'm just the crabby one.......BAH. but, back to being here on thursdays....ugh. i really don't like the football house. bah, yet i'm going. kill me. oh well. last time at fb with the girls. then home because i need to get sleep for my 8 am appt in edina with my plastic surgeon. 8 am, what the hell, theres going to be so much traffic that i'll have to leave at like 6:30. EWW. STARBUCKS TOMORROW MORNING FOR SHIZZLE! Current Mood: irritated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:28 am	i miss rachel! woke up super late. threw on a pair of sevens and a purple ralph lauren button down with my hair in a messy bun. god i looked sweet....couldn't find my ralph lauren boat slides so i had to settle for wicker flip flops....so of course i was pissy all morning. had to go to the doctor today, apparently its a second degree burn, whatever the fuck that means (but she said i'm lucky because it should have been worse and i could have gone blind and blah blah blah i don't know, i wasnt listening because her shirt was so limey green i was totally distracted and then i read this thing on add on the wall and i realized i met all the symptoms and then i saw ants on the floor, GROSS! but, she said i'm going to be lucky because it shouldn't scar blah blah blah), so i'm going to a plastic surgeon on friday. yay! lol, fun times, right? at least i love my ps dr. harrington. best female ps in minnesota well known for her breast reductions. i've never had anything done, its just good to have a ps incase you decide to do anything, plus shes super smart about skin. bah. didn't get to go to tri sigma events this week. BOO. i don't really feel like going out. and i can't wear make-up or my face will "tattoo"....weird. damnit, i guess next week. i love how drew and grover called me scar face and sang lion king songs to me the whole way to class today.....they will have their day...just wait....ha. my dad was an insensitive ass today....i totally forgot why, but it was not cool. maybe it was because i asked him for this self tanner from paris thats like 120 dollars or something since i'm not allowed to tan for 6 months....yes i know, i started crying in the dr. office when she told me today, i think she thought i was insane, and my dad said NO! what is this no thing going on lately?! WHAT THE FUCK?! god, he wont even get me the god damn bcbg girls heels i need. what the bitch fuck?!?!?! so i of course got all over dramatic and started crying saying he was insensitive and didn't understand me or my feelings and how i will never be able to leave the house because i'm not tan and the stuff they sell here leaves me orange and i'll become a social exile all because hes cheap and he doesn't love me because if he did he wouldn't be a complete cheap ass for the past two days...(does he expect me to buy the stuff from target? i mean seriously, come on. there is really no point in saying no at this stage because i'm already spoiled and ruined.) ...i think my mom is going to order it for me tomorrow though after i locked myself in my room saying i wanted to die. that or unlimited mystic tans...YAY! bet i'm going to get lots of dates after people read that now huh? lol. who cares, at least i'm getting the self tanner. ha, i win. ON THE BRIGHTER SIDE OF THINGS..... *getting my hair dyed again tomorrow...going even DARKER! YES! brunettes kick ass bitches! at least thats what rachel said, and i agree with her. SPEAKING OF RACHEL..i talked to her today. i miss that girl so much! so many fun times....back in kindergarten playing pretty pretty princess and both of us being pissed off at this bitch theresa that always won the crown because it was "her game", going to the mall with her dad and having him carry the bags, stealing my parents car saying we had to do "community service projects" at 6 at night to go to the mall, our lunches, lol, lingerie hotel parties and pillow fights! thinking it would be smart to go to sex world during our lingerie hotel party and having tyler get pulled over for speeding with me in the front seat wearing...lingerie, lol!, going to music shows with jim and talking about diabetes, hanging out in her room with chelsea and the boys, PORN.....lol. Oh my god, that girl is like one of my best friends always and forever. and she is getting married in october! i am way happy for her. we're having a girls night ASAP....lingerie, margaritas, FUN FUN FUN! she also has a cute boy named jake to introduce me to. GAH, lol. saw katie gardner today! i miss that girl too.....yay dancers! she is still dancing, i give her major snaps....even though she is totally sick of it...i have so much catching up to do with people its unreal. Current Mood: indifferent (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
11:40 pm	i want new shoes mikey called tonight! AAH! MY SHINEY! made my night. i miss him a lot. only....6 more months. bah. spent most of my time today watching how to marry a millionaire and breakfast at tiffanys on the romance channel. things were just so much more classy back then, what happened? read hes just not that into you today. amazing! if he doesn't call you then hes just not interested. if he doesn't make the first move then...hes just not interested. changed my whole perspective. no more chasing guys, what a waste of time. if they're interested they'll do whatever they can to have you. makes complete total sense. went with mom and talked to a burn nurse. i'm not going to scar thank god! i just get to wear this really nasty silver stuff on my face until friday. hot. can't wait for school tomorrow, lol. i asked my dad tonight for just 100 dollars to get new heels for this weekend. he laughed and handed me a 2 dollar off coupon for payless...god he's funny. i'm laughing on the inside. i want new shoes....maybe tomorrow. wow, because that didn't make me sound spoiled at all. jesus. anyway, i'm just waiting for summer....i long for those days wasted at the beach. getting sand stuck in my hair. hot beach boys. getting black. NOT WEARING CLOTHES! lol. summer needs to come now and school needs to be over with asap! Current Mood: satisfied (Comment on this)
Monday, April 18th, 2005
10:22 pm	my bitch day woke up at 7 this morning and thought "hmm....i'll make my own breakfast this morning", you know, try to do something on my own....yeah, BAD idea. i tried to make a poached egg in a cup of water in the microwave and when i took it out the whole cup burst in my face..lovely way to wake up. you can tell i never paid attention in home ec. my parents had to take me to the doctor at like 8 am. i'm sure i looked extremely hot in my orange cookie monster t-shirt, black tap shorts, and lime green flip flops. high class act. at least i put mascara and a bit of chanel lipgloss on, like it helped at all though considering i had egg in my hair. my hair that i spent over an hour curling. what a bitch! anyway, we get to the office and the nurse goes so whats wrong? as i sit there bawling with ice packs on my face. hmm....what happened, well my breakfast exploded in my face and it fucking burns! what the hell did she think, i broke my arm? i mean christ. anyway....the doctor gave us burn cream and said it shouldn't scar thank god, i have parties to appear at this weekend and i was surely not going with scars. then i got to go to target with both of my parents....fun times. i sat in the audi bawling as my dad told me how i am not to use the microwave anymore. i asked him how i'm going to live on my own if i can't even make breakfast, he said i can't live on my own. so supportive, my parents are. then he said next time when there is no one to cook my meals to make cereal. yes, because i want sugar and carbs when i'm on a diet. mr. sensitivity right there. doesn't he know i have pms this week?! god, i already told him that like 4 times. so now i get to lounge around the house for 2 days and no tanning for a week. BAH!!! no tanning?! oh well, i guess i am lucky. at least i get perscription strength advil. bascially put me out for the entire day. my day consisted of cold compresses, cold creames, reading, and finally i couldn't take it anymore so i did what always makes me feel better...yes thats right, i went and got a mani and pedi. nothing makes a girl feel better then a fresh sparkly pink manicure and tangerine toes. tomorrow i might go shopping with my mom since i wont be going to school, and then we might make daiquiris. WOO! then study night.........i could really go for a daiquiri right now though. ahh...today life is a bitch. Current Mood: sore (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
10:36 pm	thursday i went to spin....bah, its getting old with me. my friend di is taking a couple people and myself to some underground clubs and warehouse parties next thursday. maybe a rave. oooh. lol. as if my life wasn't crazy and chaotic enough, it should be a lot of fun though. all i need to do is figure out what to wear. it seems like he hangs out with a lot of gq people so i need to look hot. friday i worked and then stayed home. my brother was sick and my parents had to go out so i stayed and watched him. we watched van helsing. holy lord that man is hot. so many drunken calls from my boys. gah, i love it. i miss them so much, sta highschool crew! lol. its funny because i never really hung out with a lot of people from my own highschool, it was usually a few and then the sta boys. so when people ask me oh, you went to park, who did you hang out with? i'm just like ahh...i hung out with people from st thomas academy. then they usually go...........isn't that an all boys school? and i just say yep and laugh. boys are so much easier to get along. we should have some crazy times together this summer. lol, hanging out at the plaza. my god, good times. i have come to realize that the only person i can trust is my mom. i love her. shes more of a friend than a mom, and i'm totally happy with that, i'm old enough to where i don't need a mom, but i can always use a friend. everything else is "the game" as she calls it. i'm getting rather good at playing the game. shes taking my shopping this week so i have something new to wear to parties at the u of m next weekend. i love how she understands everything. saturday i had to work. 5-10, but it was so much fun! oh how i love everyone at work. they all make me laugh. mikey called! awww....we have a new thing, everything we say we drink we end with "tini".i miss him soo much! went home and changed real quick, gotta have the franco sarto and prada, duh! then went with a couple of friends from work to a pink party which was lame so we went to a frat party at SAE. its so funny because we just walked up not knowing anyone but they let us in anyway, then soon as we got in i knew over half the people there and a few that lived there so it was cool. i love the u of m. what the hell am i doing in river falls?! lol. one more year and i'm done there, thank god! after SAE we went back to Ambers apartment for a little after party but i was getting tired so i drove home around 3 talking to my rf boy jack on the phone! what what! lol. i probably would have fallen alseep if i didn't talk to him. today was boring. nothing exciting really happened. woke up, spa day, started writing my book (yes, thats right, i'm writing a book) fell asleep in my parents bed, woke up and dinked around the house. weighed myself. already lost 5 pounds, only 15 more pounds to lose and i'm at my perfect ideal weight! WOO! i give myself 3 weeks and it will be gone. just in time for bikinis. YES! the mom is getting me an unlimited tanning package friday too.....praise the lord! i will be thin and tan in 3 weeks...holy hanna hottness...lol. so i have been thinking all week, why did i even like him?! omg, i finally realized why did i waste so much of my time?! lol. its crazy, i'm almost pissed off at myself. i thought he was so cool but i finally see it, i can't believe it but i finally see it, he was just playing the game. what a damn fool i was. BUT then again, how smart i am to see the game and then still see all these girls going crazy over him. snaps to me. little girl highschool crushes are so over with me. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
12:39 am	"mens" of honor i ran errands with bryce tonight. he had to get his tire and headlight fixed so we went to tires plus. my job was to make sure the headlights turned on after he switched the bulb and sign the credit card slips. i am such a helper. i decided bryce and mikey are going to be my "mens" of honor at my wedding when i find a husband....lol. i told my mom. she said its up to you so its official, lol. drove home with my dad tonight. weird, but not really. bah, i don't know, i'm tired. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)